I'm a vascillator. Always have been, probably always will be.

This past week, I was faced with the largest, toughest, all day teary-eyed, all night thinking, most emotionally-draining, guts challenging decision of my life thus far—my first career choice after  college graduation. My options were very different from one another, yet (as usual) I could not decide for the life of me.

Option 1: Continue to work at my beloved alma mater (in an office full of people I have grown to consider confidants, family, and friends) and see where that road leads.

Option 2: Dedicate one year of my time and talent to mentor young women across the country for an organization which has given me so much during my time as a collegian.

Oh, the thoughts: take the safe route and see what was on the road ahead?  Or just dive in and pursue a job which I had always thought would be a great experience? You’re young—live a little because now is the time to do it!  But what about your future career when your term is over? But you can travel the country!  But would you like living out of a suitcase?

After much consideration, reams of paper covered with pros and cons lists, sleepless nights, and days being showered with stories of experience and good advice, I had to just choose. “Just choose something and make the best of it.” Those closest to me reiterated to me that either choice would be a good experience that has much to teach me. So I chose. And my decision… drumroll, please… I am the newest Alpha Sigma Tau Educational Consultant.

This new position isn’t just a job, a responsibility, an oath to give my all; it is also a complete lifestyle change.  I will continuously and enthusiastically bop around from college to college across the United States and consult, mentor, and educate women of the Alpha Sigma Tau National Sorority. 

Essentially, I will be living out of a suitcase.  (What a great excuse to purchase new luggage!) Catching flights left and right. Renting cars. Navigating strange roads—good thing I’ve always sort of had a decent sense of direction. Meeting new people.  Seeing new places. Scoping out potential colleges for graduate school or future careers. Not having a space to call mine except for a very cute suitcase filled with, at first, proof of my inability to pack lightly.

I am very much looking forward to this new journey, to helping young women across the country not only with their chapter operations, but also their quest to become productive, successful, responsible members of today’s society.  This is a lot of responsibility and I am not taking it lightly.  And though I will miss everything about my life now and my nerves are kicking in, I’m extremely excited for this new experience.

And if you caught the SNL reference in the title of my blog, points for you.